I forgot to take pictures this morning of where I'm at... so... here's me messing around at Old Navy.
This week was a bit hard on me, emotionally. I had a doctor's appointment on Tuesday, a call with the results on Wednesday, and an appointment next Friday to find a specialist who can confirm the first doctor's results with more tests. I don't have medical insurance so I go to a free clinic and they can't really do all the tests... I'm hoping that they can find someone I can afford.
Bottom line is, they're worried I have diabetes.
That was extremely hard for me to write.
I probably cried for half an hour after they called me.
I don't feel like I do... but really, how would I know? I've put on A LOT of weight since high school and I do definitely feel different than I did back then... even different from 3 years ago. So maybe that "different" is diabetes? I don't know.
I DO know that even the past two weeks of watching what I eat (not just eating whatever, but making mindful choices) has given me more energy and changed... everything.
I'm not sure where I'm going with this post... *FOCUS*
So I didn't lose any weight this week but I didn't gain any either. I have more energy. And I definitely feel stronger even if I slacked on the exercise for a few days.
My goal is to get back on track this week.
OH. And I promised info from the research I'm doing into eating habits and fitness. Well... I have TONS of info. Hopefully I'll post some stuff next week.
Have a great weekend everyone!
Keep pushing Rose! I haven't lost any weight in the past two weeks, even though I've pushed myself hard in the work outs I've done (I did slack off last week, but I'm getting back on track now I think).
ReplyDeleteIt's all just a matter of pushing through and keeping on! I've had to remind myself just this morning that sometimes the scale isn't exactly telling the truth, or at the very least, the whole story. We're changing so much more than what number is on a scale - we're changing our view on food, on our life-fuel, on life, on "exercise", "work outs", on being active and being healthy.
I'm really sorry to hear that you might have diabetes. ((hug)) But you know what? I've found, being hit with a medical condition only wakes us up a bit to the realities of what we've done to ourselves. The good news is, WE have all the power in the world to change. WE have all the motivation and courage and strength to change. If it is confirmed that you have diabetes, you know, own that. It's scary, but it's manageable.
I have a few medical issues, supplements and medication that I have to take day in day out... paying attention to what I eat, because of my medical issues. I used to hate it all... but I've learned that if I own it, if I accept my reality, than I can control it. It's all manageable, and not only will we get by, we'll be stronger people for it.
I'm so proud of you to be starting this! And so happy to be here to encourage you. I wish we had more time to hang out when I was down in the OC... but such is life. <3
You're a beautiful beautiful soul, talented and bright. Never forget that.
Rose! Keep going! <3
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